I have half a mind to tell you what I think!

That sounds so… confrontational. That was just to tie in the fact that:

1. in today’s Cereal Wednesday I literally set up the shot incorrectly and for much of the video you only see from the bottom of my glasses DOWN to the cereal. But, we do this in one take and that was my one take! So, enjoy.

2. I am now an author on Buy Her and have a review up today. Please go read it, I wrote it for you! :) Britt has a ton of new authors over there, so I highly recommend that you add the site to your feed reader if you haven’t already. I love it over there, an awesome collaboration of awesomer than awesome women telling you about products and services you might know about but haven’t tried or things you’ve never heard of… or things you have heard of and want to chime in about. It’s ok if you’re a guy, go chime in. We love guys. :)

3. my back has been doing much better thanks to something I can’t tell you about because I’m writing a review of it! :p You’ll have to wait a while for that. But, point being: My back is no longer SCREAMING at me on a minutely basis, and it is bliss… Did you know 80% of us will experience back pain at some point in our lives? I already had it for 2 solid years before, I think someone else gave me their turn. (Honestly, really, it’s because I’ve gained so much weight, and I know that, and I need to take care of that, but I adore food and haven’t quite yet gotten to my “hitting bottom” point.)

4. I had a group job interview last week and will know this Friday if I get to have an individual interview. I am SO excited to find out. I wrote my little heart out in the cover letter for it. Whether I get the job or not, I think I’ll post an image of the cover letter so you can see me in a nutshell. I’ve never written this kind of cover letter, so I’m hoping I stand out because I wrote from the heart.

5. some very important to me people are visiting soon (one this month and some next month). I’ll fill you in later. I cannot WAIT to see them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

6. TiMER was available as a recommendation to me via Netflix Watch Instantly so I watched it at bedtime on Monday night. It was a really great movie that forces you to think through if you’d really like to be told exactly who your soulmate is, thus discounting anyone else you might have a relationship with. The ending leaves me sad for the main character who spent a lot of time trying to find her one and just dropping people who she realized from the timer on her arm weren’t her one. If I am not currently with the person I’m “supposed to be with” I assure you that I don’t wanna know about it, cuz I love the guy I’m with to little teeny tiny pieces, reconstituted to a sheet of paper, then torn back up into even more pieces.

7. you look beautiful today. (Guys, it’s ok for you to look beautiful, I promise.)

Preparedness

Some family news I kind of suspected since I was a kid was confirmed today. It’s sitting very uncomfortably with me. Its consequences are steep and far reaching. And that’s all I can say because it’s not my news to share. Suffice it to say, you’re just never prepared to hear bad news.

My birthday weekend!

I’m 14 again! Ok, really I’m 36, but does anyone think I actually act my age? Well, maybe people I work with. I’m like a mullet — business in the front, PARTY IN THE NOT FRONT PEOPLE!

So, Friday I decided to go see Inception by myself. Great movie, made me really depressed and contemplate life as I was walking out of the theater, but I am looking forward to seeing it again with other humans. Friday night I watched wrestling with Dawg before he had to go do overnight vollies with KC then I watched In a Day on Netflix. It’s a movie about a woman whose day starts our very unwell then goes well then there’s a conflict about whether it was really a good day at all.

Saturday I had Special K Blueberry for breakfast and harvested my FarmVille farm, then Dawg woke up and we went to the Georgia Diner for lunch, the mall to get me A DROID X (we are now a Droid family on a family plan, woooooot!), then to the Lego store where we hung out with R2-D2, then we went to Radio Shack to buy a slim line phone for my PHONE INTERVIEW FOR A JOB ON MONDAY (people, don’t get all excited, I don’t have the job yet), then we went over to Mama Dawg’s and I opened an adorable cat coming out of a box gift from Adam with instructions only in Japanese as well as gifts from Dawg’s parents — money for underwear and money for A CLEANING LADY TO COME OVER ON FRIDAY (people, quit getting so damn excited, it’s not like you’re coming over to use my bathroom anytime soon, jeez, it’ll be dirty again by then). After prezzies we went to dinner at Barosa and waited an obscenely long time for them to kill the animals with which to make our dinners but we had a great time just talking about family stuff then after dinner we went back to Mama Dawg’s and had Twilight ice cream cake. Team Wolf Boy, rawwwwwr! Then we went home and at midnight I turned around from my desk to say “Dawggy, it’s my birthday!” but he was already stealthily walking over to me to give me a kiss and wish me a happy birthday so I caught him in mid-step, hehe. Then on the way to bed I found cards from Dawggy and each of the kitties. In Ripley’s card was a FarmVille gift card!!!! In Georgie’s card was a birthday wish in RUSSIAN (she’s a Russian Blue). In Allie’s card was a birthday wish in FRENCH (she speaks French as her first language because of when I got her in life). In Twitter’s card was a stinkbomb (kidding, it was her talking in her NEUROTIC ALL CAPS VOICE). In Dawg’s card was a hula girl on a car dashboard, which is our trip to Hawaii (as in, the card is as close as we’re getting to Hawaii).

In the morning Twitter woke me up at 6:30am to eat my toes and scratch my face so I got up for a minute and added my FarmVille gift card to my farm so I could buy a golden retriever named Zoe, the final nail for my beehive, and a birthday cake then Dawg dragged me back to bed and I slept until 10:15am! YAY! Then I got out of bed and we sat down at the couch and I opened presents from Bdogg, Dawg’s Aunt Honey, my grandmother, and myself. Then we made pretzel bites and watched The Crazies on Movies on Demand (loved it! see it! have a hand to hold!). After the movie I got ready to go out to dinner with Dawg to the Waterfront Crab House where I proceeded to stuff myself silly with a Coke, a bloomin’ onion, salad with blue cheese (they do an Italian vinaigrette with gorgonzola for their blue), baked potato, filet mignon, a glass of French Merlot, a key lime tart TO DIE FOR, a single shot espresso, and a coffee.

We then came home and went into food comas while watching Terminator: Salvation. The rest of the night will be spent watching True Blood and hanging with the kitties, then a little bit of well deserved birthday sex. :) A fantastic birthday.

Thank you all so much for your calls, blog posts, tweets, FB wall messages, text messages, email wishes, cards, gift certificates, tangible items, and your general caring for my existence. You contributed to an awesome birthday.

<3

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Casualty of war

Things did not end well with me and the ex. I haven’t spoken to him in about two years. We just don’t see eye to eye on life, and he has no interest in being a positive part of my life. This also means that it has been three years since I’ve seen his family. I don’t really think about them much because they’re not mine anymore.

Isn’t that weird? I was in his life for 10 years and yet our inability to resolve our issues results in me losing the status of sister, daughter, cousin, niece, granddaughter to an entire family.

Some days that’s pretty overwhelming, particularly on the days when my boyfriend is invited to family functions by his ex’s family because they are still such good friends and he is still considered important to her family, although his title is Family Friend now instead of stepdad, brother, son, grandson, cousin, nephew.

Most of the time I just push my complete erasure from my ex’s family to the deep, dark, uncharted territories of my mind. And then something unexpected happens and I flash back.

Saturday night Dawg and I wanted to stay in and watch a movie on demand. We looked through the movies together and settled on Dear John. We knew we would cry through it, because it’s a tear-jerker. Minutes into the movie John meets Savannah. Minutes more into the movie the two are at a party together and Savannah introduces John to Allen, an autistic boy who is the son of Tim.

Triggering my flashback.

Allen was the biological four-year-old son of Hay’s aunt. The first time we met we fell in kid love. I loved his spirit, he loved that he could call me his girlfriend. Allen and I played for hours each time we saw each other. Allen looked exactly like the boy in the movie. And so I burst out crying because I realized that I had forgotten Allen ever existed.

Because I’m not allowed to be part of that family anymore. Or that boy’s life. And I never got to say goodbye to him, I just disappeared from his life.

And that was a choice I made, knowing the consequences.

sigh.

Today is a very good day.

Dawg and Allie say EAT ME

Dawg and Ripley

Dawg and Georgie

Twitter LOVES to attack Dawg's feeties

Me and Dawg in the elevator as we left

Lots of kitty kisses from Allie ♥, Ripley ♥, Georgie ♥, Twitter ♥, and Poppy ♥

Join the retirement party

Today is my mom’s last day of work. For, like, ever if she wants. She has spent the last bit of time at her job frantically training a new person to be as awesome as she is. No matter how well my mom does at training this new person there is no replacing her. That office, like many offices before it, has considered my mom and her work to be stellar, relied on her to be their right-hand (wo!)man, and looked to her as a very valuable resource. Because she is.

She is my hero. My inspiration. My role model. And she just has that effortless ability of being other people’s hero, inspiration, and role model too.

And I cannot wait for her to get to sleep in until noon Monday while the office melts down without her. And I cannot wait for her to get to spend as much time as she wants visiting her children and grandchildren across the country. And I cannot wait for her to do whatever she feels in her heart is her next chapter of her greatness.

Me and Mom at the Georgia Diner

We love you, Mom. Happy last day!

(And I promise to update you on Ripley a little later today. <3 :)

Can she do it?

I wrote this post this morning. While I was writing I decided, “you know what, mama? How about instead of asking if you CAN do it you just fucking get it done and be the champion you know you are?” So, all the stuff that’s crossed out is what I DID do today…

I have to do these things. I’m sitting here not doing them because I don’t feel well, waiting for my DayQuil to kick in. I work well under pressure so we’ll see.

Gotta:

. put the laundry together
. get the laundry to the place to have the laundry done for us
. put all the recycling out so we stop looking like hoarders
. do the dishes
. do the kitty boxes
. give the girls their weekend love
. fix a computer in another time zone
. do some cereal eating
. attempt to make Mikey’s maple pie
. buy containers for Easter candy
. put the Easter candy in said containers
. pay bills
. have Poppy Dawggy time (in whatever form our old bodies will let us)
. have Wrestlemania Easter Sunday at Mama Dawg’s with the NJ crew
. eat, sleep, groom
. kick this fucking cold to the curb

There’s stuff left on that list, but this weekend isn’t over yet, is it? Nope. :)

Thank you.

To everyone who voted for me for Hot Blogger Calendar: Thank you.

It’s more about your support than it is about the win. I have no idea if I did win, since voting is through today, I just want you to know that I genuinely appreciate your efforts.

Life is good when good friends and family surround me. :)

Thankfulness

Today is my mommy’s birthday.
Tomorrow is my stepdad’s birthday.

But I’m the one who gets the present.

They’re both showing up tomorrow to Dawg’s parents’ house and staying in Queens for Thanksgiving.

I can’t even put into words how much it means to me that they’re joining us for Thanksgiving. I am so thankful for their willingness to make the trip, to hang out with the entire gang (me, Dawg, Hollywood, Mama Dawg, Mr. Clean, Pudding, Pudding’s Wife, The Wolves, Gwennie the dog, Soco and Coco the cats), and to celebrate their birthdays with us in the chaos of Queens instead of the calm quiet of Tennessee. :)

I am the luckiest girl int he woooooorld.

Back when I lived in Vermont all I ever wanted was a free weekend.

I guess I’ve turned into someone who perpetually needs a line-up. Right now I have events for more weekends between now and the new year than I have free weekends, and I’m pretty sure all the free weekends will fill up shortly. And one of those events came about today when my aunt emailed me saying the next time I was in town she hoped to at least have coffee with me.

I thought it through, and I am technically keeping my word that I am not returning to Vermont for the remainder of 2009, so instead? Instead I’m showing up there on Friday, January 1, 2010 on a plane, renting a big 4WD vehicle, and crashing on couches. Right now my brother’s couch is confirmed, waiting on that second night’s couch, and then I fly back on Sunday, January 3. And right before I fly back I’m having lunch with my aunt, uncle, cousins, and their two doggies, Daisy and Chester.

Daisy and Chester

Yay. :)