I almost got through the night without a bad dream. Right before I woke up for the day I had an ambiguous dream where Dawg said “I have something to tell you” and I got scared that it was going to be a bad thing so I woke myself up.

I told him about this dream when he got home tonight and asked him if he had anything bad to tell me. He didn’t. I asked him if he had anything good to tell me. He reminded me about some good news.

I am left with the reminder that I am always waiting for the other shoe to fall.

I hate that.

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  1. I know how you feel. Even 3+ years later I still find myself asking Vahid if he still wants to be with me, which is a stupid question because he would not let me quit my job and support me if he didn’t.

    It’s a horrible feeling, waiting for the shoe to drop. Hopefully we both break that cycle.