Rationless

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Today I am a woman with PMS. If you’ve never been one of me then I can only imagine you have something else that afflicts you that is semi-relatable in some manner. If not: lucky you!

Last night a two-sentence conversation resulted in me being upset, confused, and angry. I had trouble falling asleep. This morning I’m still all those things plus sad. The thing is, I know I’m a woman with PMS so it feels impossibly difficult for me to gauge if last night’s conversation meant anything at all really, or instead meant that everything is tilted on its axis and either I am not believed or I am living some sort of a fantasy that isn’t actually Reality, or if I’m just blowing this way out of proportion.

My brain is reminding me of all the times I have felt this way while experiencing the imbalance of hormones I have each month at this time, but my heart is injured.

I see a doctor October 8 for a yearly physical. #1 on my “discuss with doctor” list is to make sure that I should still take a birth control pill now that I’m the magical age of 35, and #2 will be: how the hell do I achieve a hormone level that lets me stay rational? Because this fucking sucks bull testicles, dude.

14 thoughts on “Rationless”

  2. Put the conversation to the side until you’re back in balance again, then revisit it. There is no rational thought during PMS.

    I’m not sure it’s possible to balance hormones before menopause. Or even after. If the PMS is really bad, talk to your doctor. Maybe you can change your pill. How ’bout one with only three periods a year?

  4. (you can balance hormones before menopause. you can even hypothetically balance them in the teen years — not that i advocate this.)

    also, cut out sugars. eat more calcium. evening primrose. regular exercise and water.

    i know none of that sounds good when you have PMS, tho.

  5. I take Ogestrel (just regular ol birth control no seasonique stuff) three months in a row with no “broken time” then when the “broken time” comes I take Celexa (a zoloft type pill) this keeps the crazies at a minimum. If I didn’t take this combo my hubs would leave me the PMS is that bad.

  6. Toe, you just made me cry. It feels so good to know I’m not the only one who goes this Molly Ringwald outer limits.

    With my current pills if I try to skip the period time I get massive headaches, plus my emotional PMS comes during week 3 day 2 while the physical comes week 4 day 4. It’s stupid.

  12. I use Nuvaring because I’m too lazy to remember to take a pill everyday. This is the most even I’ve ever been while on birth control, but that’s not saying much (and I’m also on an anti-depressant, so that’s REALLY not saying much). My PMS actually shows up whenever the hell it wants. Just pity Darren and be glad we’re not reproducing.

  13. I started taking Cymbalta for depression related to severe PMS. It has changed my LIFE! No more breaking down and crying over dog food commercials.

    CP