I am so sad and devastated and mourning the loss of a boy who would be my family if things were different.
Three years later just means it’s the fourth year in a row that I’ve cried until my heart couldn’t take it anymore.
So selfish to love a boy who never knew I existed.
Love you, Puppy. So much.
Posted on June 21st 2010 in In memory
June 21st, 2010 at 2:27 am
There really are no sufficient words of comfort I can offer except that I am terribly sorry…so sorry.
June 21st, 2010 at 8:27 am
Our thoughts and hearts are with you two today.
June 21st, 2010 at 1:19 pm
I don’t believe anything about this love you have or loss you feel is selfish.
June 21st, 2010 at 6:06 pm
It is not necessary to meet a boy face to face to know how wonderful they would have been in your life.
Danny has been gone for years yet I still wonder what he would have been like as a father to his children.
June 21st, 2010 at 7:00 pm
I don’t think it’s selfish at all. My thoughts are with you both on this day.
June 21st, 2010 at 11:00 pm
It is not selfish to feel sorrow for the loss of what could have been.
June 22nd, 2010 at 6:41 am
We all feel it to some degree if only because Dawg wrote so lovingly of him that we couldn’t help but share in it.
June 22nd, 2010 at 11:35 pm
I thought of you and Dawg on Monday and shed a tear or two of my own.
There’s nothing selfish about loving someone, and nothing wrong with wondering “what if” or wondering what could have been. I still think of two little boys that I love and miss to this day and wonder how it would have gone if things had been different. If anything, it shows you have a wonderful capacity for love and compassion.
June 23rd, 2010 at 8:29 pm
Grieving is for the griever. You feel what you feel and that is OK.
You may not have known the Puppy Monster, but he is a part of the man you love and Dawg is a part of him. How could you not love him? And how could you not mourn what might have been?
Love you.