Sorry, but I need to be deep for one moment.
I have had a really hard week. A few of the things that have been spectacularly shitty for me are not even my situations, they’re other people’s situations.
I had a meltdown today. A full-on meltdown. I was in my car sobbing, trying to talk on the phone about something a little too private to share here (sorry) between fits of tears, with a migraine headache, feeling both “woozy” (not dizzy, apparently) and sick to my stomach (I was convinced I would throw up, but never quite did), and shaking.
I called my boss from the parking lot to say I needed to take the afternoon off. Poor guy, he asked me if I was going to hurt myself. That means he’s a well trained boss. I would think the same if I got such a disturbing phone call. Hurting myself is never on my mind, not even on the darkest day. In the past I can’t say that was true, but I could never do that to everyone who loves me.
I am feeling much better personally, after going home for some kitty hugs and kisses, but I am still very worried for a few friends, and not looking forward to the situation for another few friends.
Lesson: Don’t have friends.
Fuck you, Lesson. Hugs to all my friends who need them. :) (If you think I’m talking to you, I am. I’m also talking to the ones who can’t visit right now, and the ones who don’t and won’t ever know this blog exists… *sigh*)
I have always wanted to ask if your mother’s name was Diedra, because you look like somebody I dated in high school lo these many years ago and that really is something that ought to seriously cheer you up.
RW, are you my daddy? My mom’s name is not Diedra, but I look just like her. :)
Hugs. Mucho hugs. Humongous hugs.
Teebopop, omg… Thank you. :) I wasn’t trying to get hugs for me, but that is a very welcome response right now.
Considering all the hugs you’ve given me when I need them…
*HUGS* for Poppy
*HUGS* for Poppy’s friends that need them
*HUGS* for Poppy’s friends that don’t necessarily need them right this instant but may in the future
*BITCHSLAP* for Lesson… that’s a pretty shitty one
No silly, not your Daddy! I didn’t marry her. That is… I mean…
Oh neverthehellmind.
Thanks, Dawg. :) I have given you a lot of hugs over the past several months, haven’t I… I’m a hugger. That Lesson definitely deserved the slap. And, it amuses and surprises me that you use the word bitch in person. I don’t remember the example, but perhaps you saw my eyebrow go up. :)
RW, are you my daddy?!??!?
sigh…
RW, *grin* You’re my daddy!!!!! Yeeeee! Actually, that’s disturbing. I’m old enough to be your much younger sister.
I did?
Was it the only word I used?
I’m notorious for expletives.
Dawg, the only word you used? Yes, your entire side of the dialog was “Bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch.” Hehehe. No, you used other expletives, it just always surprises me when men says “bitch” in front of a woman. I don’t know why.
Ditto Dawg on the bitchslap thing. That lesson sucks.
And Poppy…the straight woman who wouldn’t marry this straight woman…many ((hugs)) to you for being such a caring friend. I hope your friend’s ‘things’ work out & they’re all all right.
Much love. Straight up of course. ;-)
Oh… ok.
I don’t remember. I’m an equal opportunity curser.
Awww Hon! I am sorry that you feel this way and are worried about your friends. That just proves you are a great friend, though!
Your friends are very, VERY lucky (I think in France they call it tress chan-see-ux) to have a friend like you who thinks about them so much.
Also, way to keep your finger on the pulse of your commenters’ needs, Blogger.
Hey girl.
I am so sorry to hear about such an awful day. I feel for you, and I hope that today is better for you.
Hugs.
And if you move to Texas :-) you will live where I live.
That’s not the lesson!
The lesson is to eat more chocolate. It’s yummy and releases happiness.
DB, thank you. :)
K, one of those hugs is perpetually for you, dammit.
Abs, thank you. And, yes, I know the consequences of moving to TX include living in your state. ;)
Avi, you know you get one of the hugs, right? What you did… way beyond the call of duty, even though it didn’t end in _anyone’s_ favor. Plus, a hug for the party. :)
(((((HUG))))) I know I’m late, but maybe you still need one? If not, save it for later cuz they don’t expire!
And you have a safety net of folks here on the internets.
Sour, I will always take your hugs, sweetie. I think I’m mostly ok today, but I’m not so sure about everyone else. :-/
Wah, :) it is a safe haven here. Thank you.